New City, New You

New cities, new places to see, new adventures!!!

Who else feels this way when you move to a new place? I know I do! I have recently moved to NYC, eek! At the same time it is a little intimidating because I know all of about 2 people in the entire city of New York, which contains about 8.9 MILLION people, which in itself I think is intimidating. The city literally never sleeps. There is always people walking around, which is nice when it is on the later side and you are walking home or trying to get home on the subway you are never alone! Yay for new friends!  And of course there is a bagel shop down the block from me that is open 24/7 (thank you bagel gods).

At times though it does get a little lonely I will have to admit. As much as i want to be adventurous and fun and grown up, I find myself becoming a little secluding and not wanting to go to new places or eat alone because it would only be a party for 1, so not really that much of a party. Does anyone else feel the same way?

Hierarchy 

We sit as Kings and Queens in our plastic chairs, silently judging the others around us. 

We act better than you because we are afraid that if we show you the real us, you might just see us for who we are. Fake.  Afraid. Of being alone and unhappy, so we put ourselves higher than everyone else, on these pedestal and point our noses in the air.  

They won’t notice if we don’t look them in the eye. They won’t see the tears rolling down out cheeks. If we show emotions then we look weak. 

But it is lonely at the top. Everyone is below you and you want to hate them all because they have what you want. A real life. Someone to be with. To not be alone.